God please help me!!!

Its been years since I wrote I guess. Am not even sure on what to write but I want to write :D

Let me direct this blog on a random thought on my progress so far from my last writing to today in professional and personal front.
Personally, a lot of things happening around. My daughter is one year old. She is trying to walk. She loves to babble all day long. She crawls so quick that I have to run behind her.
She has such a beautiful smile that makes all of us make us feel like in heaven! She is an angel.

She still loves mickey mouse :)
She watches the rhymes in repeat mode and very picky on it. If its something that she doesn't like, communicates easily by either crying or throwing the phone away!!!
and you must understand, she doesn't like it!  And it needs to be changed immediately.

She has now learnt well to put smaller items into a bigger. Building barrels one top of another and building blocks to throw away!!
she plays well with her nephews and calls him anna.

A lot about her and my dear Shriya when you read it someday, don't ask me more questions...
Amma might have forgotten.
I'll make sure to save the videos for you :)

we are still in Bangalore, earnestly trying to wind up but nothing in favour!
Bangalore is getting tough for a day to day living here.
And I hear this from many, so Bengaluru... don't get offended with this and do be angry on me.
Be merciful. I am still a bangalorian!! ;)

Talking about Bangalore, Yaayyy now I have a new topic for my next blog ;)
My personal skills and abilities haven't changed but not utilized to the fullest.
The baby care and household chores takes my time off that I don't really get to do something extra.
But I'll make sure to do it regularly here after. No more excuses!

On the professional front, I work as a test analyst in TCS ( the same as while my previous blog ) just that into a new project post maternity.
The work here is pretty usual – unusual. And dealing with the people is the biggest challenge.
Am trying to find ways to understand and deviate from people who seem a friend... no no... they are not . OMG am not even sure what kinda people.!!!
Not wanting to manipulate at the same time knowing they are manipulative makes me terrible at mathematics!!!!

The work seems manageable but the workplace and the people around are a challenge.
Everywhere its the people who are challenging to handle and that makes the difference in individuals. Some people are very good at handling others and they seem to be happy at the end of the day.
This is what matters and am also learning to handle my situations to get the best out of me.
Alright !!!!! its too confusing and philosophical otherwise, so to put it short...
God please help me!!!!!!

Picture Perfect!

I was going through my honeymoon pics and other pictures a year old on my google plus ( thanks to google plus / picasa web albums for helping us save these pictures, where today we don’t really go and print our pics). A memory of its own….

It’s not the beauty of the pictures or how young I looked a year (I was definitely younger and thinner than today) that came to my mind, but the relationship and the times I shared with the people in the picture that flashed through my mind.

“Whatever is the current status of your relationship with the people in the pics, the pictures remind you of great memories together and will help you relive the moments and forget the ego and fights you’re having currently”

Of late having been too busy with myself that I don’t really take much pics and upload. I have decided to take more pics and definitely once my baby is born…. It’s going to be all along picture time!! Yaayy!!!

When I see my childhood pics, I get reminded of all the colorful moments and people I grew up with. Its indeed the most cherishing thing in anyone’s childhood and I definitely want to give my baby too a good memory.

So … here everybody….

Let’s take a selfie pulla ;) 

Opinion Matters

Yes, we all have an opinion on anything and everything….

The title can be read in two ways

1.       The blog describes about opinion as a matter

2.       An individual’s opinion matters to himself/herself

I want to share the space to talk about both here. There are lots of situations in life where we feel we have an opinion but do not share it out. This could be about a person or an organization or a movie or the government at large. Could be anything!!

From as simple as a response of a person to a question of yours to as big as elections we have opinions. There is no hard and fast rule that we cannot have thoughts/opinion about a matter (anything and everything).

Opinion on person is sometimes termed as “Judging”. On the other hand on any other already talked about thing, it’s just an opinion.

For e.g.: if someone says you not working well or that you have to show initiatives (yes, I work in “the” IT industry, it’s always rat race) it’s an opinion…. So what if the fellow person thinks of you like that, so do you have an opinion on him/her. Be it from a small mail sent out or to social relationships.

I do not think here, the opinion about you by another person should matter to you. What’s important is how you feel and think about yourself.

Anyone can have an opinion on anything under the sun. Some of them are:

Why the earth is called earth? Why this political party did this action? What does CM do? What does a police officer do? What does your manager work? Why is your peer sending such emails?  Why your husband dint call? Why why why….

So many matters to have opinion on…

Lastly, it doesn't matter what opinion others have on you or you have on others, it’s more important to have a self-assessment and be worth of what you are. 

2015 here I come….

So… 2014 is over?!!! Quick as a breeze…  the year passed so quickly that I don’t even know if I have accomplished and lived the 365 days of the year….!!

Some of my goals of 2014 were reached, the rest to be carried forward to 2015!!

This has been happening almost every year since I started with the practice… so no issues J

Let’s give this woman a little nod to this and not take a toll on it anymore… already a lot has happened over the year…

Took a lot of family trips to various cities/ states including Kerala, Ooty, Madurai and of course my fav Chennai!!

The trips were very tiring that I really needed a break from tripping!!

I did get that break too….

Apart from these, another great happening that 2015 awaits for is… Am gonna be a mom!!!!

OMG OMG OMG

Now am in my 6^th month of pregnancy and my baby is expected to arrive on April 23^rd, 2015!!

Yaay!!!

2015 welcomes him/her J

I have been so busy through the last 6 months completely into this pregnancy and its care.

Back to back consultations, medicines, scans, tests etc etc etc…

Been a ride…. And still on!

Haven’t been even blogging long since this. Yet am glad I can share this space to introduce 2015 as a year where my role changes and everything I can’t think of now!

My work life has now taken a step back, though am still working; I just stick to my timelines and no attempt to fight the cat race. Just do my job!!

Lot of planning on the baby and my health keeps me busy.

This year though has the start of 2 new members to our family (mine and my sister’s), we lost our grandmother in Oct. I still cannot believe she is not around… That I have moved to a different city after marriage, I still feel she is home… safe and taking rest.

When I go there back, am definitely gonna miss her. She has been everything to me since I know and she has raised me with all pampering that a small down in my life, I feel it’s because of her absence.

2014 to summarize has been a year of experience in every walk of life.

I have learnt a lot professionally and personally. Still learning to handle few situations where I feel I am not matured enough yet. They are all experiences. And am definitely growing….

2015 here I come for a bigger and brighter future…. Save the calendar for my baby and his/her happiness!

Happy New Year!!!

A Year ...

A year? OMG…. I just cannot believe it myself….

It’s been a year since I got married and yay it is my Anniversary day today!!!

First Wedding Anniversary!!!

I feel like I have achieved something big in life. Probably the last 2/3 months I have been waiting for this day. This milestone to be achieved…

I don’t know how exhausted am going to get by the time we reach 25 years of marriage!!

But the feeling that you have cleared a milestone and a genuine one in my case, feels awesome!!

Am saying genuine because, I have no big complains in my marriage. 

As posted in my previous blog, Marriage – An encounter, it is so true…. Which I still stand by with the proud moment of having experienced it for a year now!!

Yes, I continued the momentum of marriage as an encounter and luckily for me, my husband Sriram also gave way for it. Without him it would have been impossible for me to say these….

A year of positives… the first year of marriage is definitely bliss. It’s the initial months you are completely thrown to a stranger (in my case) where every dimension of the person whom you’re sharing the roof with is completely new. This holds good for both.

I have believed before marriage that, the first year is always loving as we try to be the nicest possible and with no revealing of the split personality within us. One year is somehow still very long a period to stay not so you. At least 50% of your split would have been revealed by now, is my opinion.

Yes, and if your spouse can put up with your 50% and you can put up with his/her 50% then definitely there need not be any hesitation to take the first year of marriage a celebration!!

I know am creating a big drama as if am an expert when compared to couples who have celebrated 10, 15, 25 years of marriage!!

I can sense that… but mine is an achievement too in my books and I would like to cherish this.

And hey… my mom has got me an anniversary gift and I cannot wait to see what surprises Sriram has for me…. So definitely an important reason to celebrate!!

Alright…. My anniversary day has begun now and I cannot wait to see how my day goes!!

Happy Wedding Anniversary Krupa and Sriram!!

A step ahead…

Every day is learning, we say. Until schooling this made sense, later I wondered what’s there to learn. Am too young to talk on life etc…

So what??!!  everyone speaks, so let me also!!! ;)

I know my nieces share life questioning thoughts on Facebook, am definitely a little more experienced and want to share my piece…

Yes, the learning curve does not start and end with Math, Science and arts… its more!!

Life means? I really don’t know…

Life teaches you something? I really don’t know…

Life is just living? I really don’t know…

But what I know is, life is me… and my life is mine.

It encloses everything – breathing, family, friends, siblings, love, relationships, society, country, world, happiness, joy, sadness, hatred, fun, work, money and so on….

It’s endless and there are more you want to add… that you started popping up…

Hey u missed marriage, travel, music…

Yes yes, each of us has our definition!!

I’m working in IT sector, married and in a different city to where I grew up.

Am least comfortable and completely new to all!!!

I make tons of mistakes every day. Am not sure how to handle them but it’s the mistakes that make me learn what not to do.

Maybe this is life, where every day you are taught, to compete with self and to be a better person than what you were yesterday.

And I know, am a step ahead than yesterday in learning to handle people, my work, my interests and everything that I feel is part of life ….

And yes, am still not 60 to talk about life and experience, but every day makes me feel bolder and not just older J

Girl with pony

She was crossing by in a scooter with her dad. Two cute ponies that were pointed up and open like a flower, shaking her head left to right, dancing to her own tunes.

She was singing happily standing on the scooter while her dad was driving.

He was a serious man. She was the opposite!!

She had no idea how the man driving her was looking or feeling J

On her way to play school, maybe, she caught my attention…

We all talk about kids and their behavior. How they always keep smiling or keep themselves busy in their own world. We should learn from them.

This girl, a fraction of 30 seconds, made me feel good as I was travelling to work.

She was happy, singing, shaking to her songs.

On the other hand, I was feeling frustrated for reasons that were not under my control?

On seeing her, she immediately brought a smile in me. A kind of relief I had within me.

I felt calm and peace. And I smiled all the way to office thinking about this little girl.

True happiness lies within you…